Introductions

Well, everyone I know has a blog of some sort so I thought it would be cool to make one for my "weight loss journey". It is something I will have that I can look back on and see how much I have changed and grown. I have decided to have lap band surgery done. I am sick of being unhealthy, taking medicine that my grandparents take, feeling like crap physically and emotionally, and worrying about my kids (I don't have any yet, but want to eventually)and if I will die before they even get to graduate high school. Frankly I am sick of living my life like I am already dead. I feel that way on the inside and as the days pass I gain more and more weight and feel more and more hopeless.

Now I know that this isn't a "magical pill", but it is something that will be "on my side" so to speak. My whole life I have battled the bulge (when I was a child it was more of a bulge in my head since I was of normal weight) and thought of food as the enemy. I just want to to live my life and be a happy person, whatever that is.

I have a WLS seminar I am attending next Thursday night with a doctor that I am most likely NOT going to go to (I figure it will be informational and there isn't anything wrong with really knowing what you are getting into). If I had $15,000 laying around I would go to him in a heartbeat! That is just a lot of money to have to cough up, especially with the price of gas and groceries rising. I have a one on one consultation on Tuesday July 29th with another doctor that I most likely WILL be going to. He is very experienced and specializes in both laparoscopic surgery and the lap band in general. I made the appointment with him the very beginning of July and it feels like this has been the LONGEST month of my life! I just want it to be here already so I can get the surgery and move on with my life. I guess I have waited this long to get any help for myself and waiting a few more weeks won't kill me. I have a feeling that I will be getting it in August. I just hope it is more toward the end of the month, maybe even early September. Nice early birthday present to myself. :)

Well, I'll write more later on.